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A Good Friend's Father

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A good friend's father died. He was quite a strong figure in my + childhood. He was compassionate, endearing, strong, and happy. He is + succeeded by two of my best childhood friends, and his second wife. I will + always remember him as smiling, or laughing, or even sometimes frustrated + with his children.

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When I learned of his passing, I immediately thought of my position in + life. My father is roughly the same age, and my mother slightly younger. + Was this death too early? Is there such a thing? If I stick to my + philosophical beliefs, then death is fated, regardless of where or when; + never early, never late. When I told a friend of the passing, his remarks + were expectedly typical: "That's fucked up. He died so early. He died so + young." The trick with beliefs is they are always tested. I found myself + caught up in grief and worry. Surprised at the passing, worried with the + thought of my parents dying. I even grew anxious of the funeral and calling + hours. Suddenly this anxiety was like a weed, finding it's way into the + cracks in my beliefs and understanding, unsettling and disrupting my peace + of mind. Instead of mourning the loss, I tangled myself into an emotional + knot, and selfishly so.

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I sat, a few days after the news, watching the rain. I considered how + the rain falls where it is due, regardless of what it falls on. The + rain cares not, it simply is. I considered the millions of drops falling on + the millions of people all around the globe. Their situations in life as + unique as each drop; in structure similar, yet in action ever slightly + divergent. In life, I cannot decide where or when I exist, I can only + decide how to perceive my existance. Epictetus wrote, "man is disturbed not + by things, but by the views he takes of them." My perceptions were skewed, + my understanding flawed, and thus I was disturbed.

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One of my favorite analogies is Bruce Lee's metaphor about water. It is + a reminder to be fluid and formless, adaptable and potent; "If nothing + within you stays rigid, outward things will disclose themselves." There's + no way for me to know what will be asked of me, as my life moves forward. + I must be shapeless, so when obstacles appear I flow around or through + them, without hesitation. I cannot affect when or how these obstacles + appear, only how I perceive them. I had forgotten this.

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A good friend's father died, and he reminded me how to live.

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[Bill Niblock][2015-07-09][Philosophy]

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